Of slippers and dust and a transformation in the making.

clocking out @ 22:41

Like landmines waiting to blow at home.
Like landmines waiting to blow at work.

clocking out @ 00:31

OMG

clocking out @ 23:39

Up until Page 67, from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

"At a certain point in our lives, we lose control of what's happening to us,and our lives become controlled by fate. That's the world's greatest lie."


"Everyone when they are young, knows what their destiny is. At that point in their lives, everything is clear and everything is possible. They are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives. But, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible for them to realize their destiny.

It is a force that appears to be negative, but actually shows you how to realize your destiny. It prepares your spirit and your will, because there is one great truth on this planet: whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, it's because that desire originated in the soul of the universe."

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If you don't dream big, what's the use in dreaming?
If you don't have faith, there's nothing worth believing.
It takes one hope to make the stars worth reaching for.
So reach out for something more.

clocking out @ 23:34

I Love You

clocking out @ 23:25

Friday had been drama. Bad luck from Friday the 13th didn't just fall on a Friday for me this year. It seemed to have happened the entire week. And I really hate that feeling of letting him get to me that easily. I didn't think I had done or hadn't done anything at all in the first place. But he always have a way to make me feel like the problem was me.

Anyway, I have learnt well from the entire eventful week and pretty much know who shouldn't I trust.

I will learn from his mistakes.

clocking out @ 08:59

I can perfectly understand how when the top puts pressure on him, he pushes the pressure down at us. I have no complains on that. I understand when he wants us to always be on our feet and get things moving out fast because there are too many things on (his) our plates. And I respect that he is an individualist, a perfectionist and a miser of encouraging words.

But I totally cannot tolerate a team leader who shames his man in front of the other teams and leaves his man behind to fend for himself. He made a fool out of himself, he made a fool out of his man, and he made the others totally lose confidence in his team, and in turn, in his man's work. His man's work, of which a lot of effort was put into, even though he only credited him with all the "what have not been done" & "why isn't it moving" rather than all the "what have been done".

I expected some good from him and had always defended him when others think otherwise. And had always thought that I would be the last man standing. But this time, he totally disappointed me.

clocking out @ 19:15

Before I forget, I have to jot this down:
1. Lapland
2. Kiruna
3. Reindeer sleigh
4. Ice Hotel

=AURORA!

clocking out @ 15:58

Reminder to self: Require precise and accurate timeline from him next time. Span of "soon" = 1 weekend.

OMG.

This feels like playing Singles in a match when you can't even do a drop shot and a net.
Unprepared.

clocking out @ 15:55

Remembering.....

....how it feels like to wake up in the morning at 5.45am to get ready for school
....the smell of the morning fresh air at 6.20am when you step out of the house to walk to the bus stop for 322
....how wonderful the smell was
....the morning dew on the window of dad's car and writing "hello!" as I walk down the lane
....arriving at school nearly 7am and leaving my bag in class before morning assembly
....arriving in school early to sweep the floor before 6.45am, before Mdm Chua arrives in school and having Mdm Chua pop in to do spot check.
....having lor mai kai 3 out of 5 days of the week, minced meat noodles 1 out of 5 days of the week, and Choc Yan Yan 1 out of 5 days of the week

I really miss school.

clocking out @ 21:15

It had been hard for the past few days. Knowing, yet unable to control, prevent or help in any way-that feeling was really really horrible. The emotional stress . which was really unneccesary now that I must say, almost wrecked lives. You'll never be able to understand how it had been like to see distraught and how it felt like to have to convince everybody and yourself on something that you were not even sure of. It felt so wrong that I allowed something to happen, even though there were barely anything I could do in the first place, it's as though I'm not protecting them well enough. That heart breaking scene in the morning just kept repeating and repeating and repeating in my head. It's just too much!

The final diagnosis proved that it was a false alarm, and I'm just too glad that all those emotional stress ended with relief. But I hope i'll never have to see those helpless, pained faces again.

clocking out @ 02:37

22 Oct 09
2nd year anniversary at work.

You'll never know when She decides it's time for you to stop living altogether.

clocking out @ 11:19

I meant me!

I'd asked God the wrong question last weekend.

Pls let me take it all back...

clocking out @ 23:49

Happy flower helps light up the room.

clocking out @ 20:52

Work is an energy zapper. I'm a 25 yrs old haggard woman with dark eye rings and very bad eye bags.

clocking out @ 23:48

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